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Baek Ji young - That Woman

I sang few word quite wrongly..but yea..

Yainnie's version.

One woman loves you.
That woman loves you wholeheartedly.
She follows you around like a shadow everyday,
That woman is laughing and crying.

Just How..How much more do I have to gaze at you alone.
This love that came like the wind, This love like a beggar.
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer..a little more..
If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.
I who love you am next to you now.
That woman is crying.

That woman now is very careful
Therefore, to learning a method of smile
Even can not talk with best friend … too much
So the woman’s heart is always crying

So that woman…is loving you…
Such a fool. Because it is such a fool
can you hug me?
I also want to be loved, my dear
Day by day in my heart, only in my heart…
just like this calling you
That woman, is still in your side

That woman… is me, do you know ?
Or You know it but still act this ?
You really do not know,because you´re a big fool …

Just How..How much more do I have to gaze at you alone.
This love that came like the wind, This love like a beggar.
If I continue this way, will you love me?
Just come a little nearer..a little more..
If I take one step closer to you, then you take two steps back.
I who love you am next to you now.
That woman is crying.

I always wanted to sing song for the one i love. Not they sing for me..

Once in a while.

Once in a while.

I do.

My wish.

DoorClose.

Sorry that you're not happy. Will stop posting. I will keep everything close to myself.

-DoorClose-

.::ItOnlyWillBeMySecret::.

Hahas.

How I wish You'll look at me and smile. And say : " I'm back. "

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Raazxc

.::Hahas::.

Seriously, I cant.

I love photos, because it never changes even when the person in it does.

我喜欢照片，因为即便当里面的人变了的时候，它也不会变。

为什么我一定要把自己扮演得很开心，实际上我却一点也不开心。 我崩溃了吗？还是神经病了。 已经多少个月了？ 我只想说我放不下。我真的很爱你。

明明很想哭，却还在笑；

明明忘不掉，却说已经忘了；

明明很在乎，却装作无所谓；

明明很脆弱，却装作很坚强；

明明很痛苦，却偏偏说自己很幸福；

明明已经无法挽回，却依然执着

明明说的是违心的假话，却说那是自己的真心话；

明明知道说这样的话会受害，却忍着疼轻松说出。

Anyone can tell me why am I able to cry so hard yesterday and the previous day. Is this the only way I can release myself from keeping everything in my mind. Full already, thats why it leak out by tears. Facing alot peoples that start their new journey together. I grats and happy for them but I tears and pain for myself.

Rejecting peoples is really killing me. But, I have to. Because I dont love them. 为什么你是我最完美的，但我却不是你的最完美。

Got to go and release myself again. Nights.

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Raazxc

.::Iseriouslycryhardformyself::.

Sorry blog, Bear with me just for a moment.

Its 1:10AM.

Hahas. Why am i still blogging.

Sorry blog, I've no one to talk to. Therefore here am I to find you, blog.

I wont leave you never.Wait forever cause that day will never come. You will cling and stick to me like a magnet on earth.Not going anywhere.

Sorry blog, that i tears again. Why i've become such a dumbo.

Let me post some new sentences that i found in facebook. Sorry blog. Just let me type in to release my idiot emotions.

Got time then stay and have a read.

The worst feeling in the world is when you can't love anyone else, because your heart still belongs to the one who broke it.
世界上最糟糕的一种感觉是，你无法爱上别人，只因你依然​留恋那个伤害你的人 .

Trust is like a piece of paper, once it's crumpled, it can't be perfect again.
信任就像是一张白纸，一旦皱了，它就不可能再完美。

有没有这么一个人，你无数次说着要放弃，但终究还是舍不​得。

有没有这么一个人，你心甘情愿地被伤害，即使你知道​你会遍体鳞伤。

有没有这么一个人，你会在独自一人时想他​想到哭泣，却在看见他时故作无所谓地笑 .

(of course I have..)

女人敢走，是看准男人会回头。
男人头也不回，是看准女人不敢走。(Zen de ma?)

That's the worst part. Liking someone so much and knowing he'll never feel the same way. ( Did anyone felt that too? )

你不要对我这么好，你对我这么好，要是有一天你对我不好​了，我会很伤心。 ( Wo zi dao.. )

If two past lovers can remain friends, it's either they were never in love or they still are.
如果分手的恋人还能做朋友，要不从没爱过，要不还在爱着 ( shi zen de ma...? )

最失败的听众是，人家随便说，你却当真了 ! ( Then I must be the very damn god failure )

吃醋是因为喜欢，
生气是因为在乎，
发呆是因为想念，
伤心是因为不想失去。 ( Good! )

【解读女人心】

1、越是会害羞的女人，说明她越纯洁；
2、自尊心越强的女人，越不会主动追求男人；
3、女人越是说自己不漂亮，就越希望男人说她漂亮；
4、表面越冷的女人，其内心越炽热；
5、女人问男人的问题越愚蠢，说明她越喜欢他

( I think i simply just asked you alot. So it means this? haha.. )

如果一个女人真的爱你，
她会因为很多事情对你发脾气，
却始终坚守在你身边。
如果一个男人真爱你，
永远不会丢下你，
不管情形有多难。( owh.. )

I really want to talk to you, but I feel like I’m annoying you.
真的好想跟你讲话，但又很怕你嫌我烦。

( I know Im always so fan de )

她接到喜欢了七年的他电话。 他对她说：我们在一起吧。
尽管她听到电话那头别人的窃窃笑声。她还是淡定的说：好​啊。
然后她说：大冒险又输了吧？ 他说：我选的是真心话。

( This is exactly how i feel that time )

Lol..seems like too much uh.. Bear with me. It make me feels better again now.

SIgn off : 1:57 AM

Raazxc

.::SorryThatIcantControlAgain:.

Am i Really Happy? I hope I am.

笑只是一種表情，與快樂無關。

難過的時候就笑吧。

Seriously sick already.

Cough. Sore throat. Flu!

Alot of things gonna plan out. This week I must at least finish my 2D for 70%! Next week assessment for it already ;( MTV. I hope can finish shoot as soon as possible. Entreprenuership! I hope its fun by doing business in school.

When I sick. My brain function more slow.

When I sick. My hair gone very dry and messy.

When I sick. I dont feel like eating. Yea. I dint take breakfast and dinner today by only taking Wan Tan Mee as my lunch.

When I sick. I think alot.

When I sick. I cry easily.

When I sick. I want to care anything.

Hao. Sorry for everything. You did make me feel alot of disappointment and so do I make you feel too. Obviously we dont work it out no matter what. Now you know the reason that im waiting only one thing. Therefore, there's no point for you to find me and talk everyday. Seriously, I dont really know what to talk to you.

Because I've no heart.It been smash into pieces months ago. Thank you very much.

Just found an article from facebook.

我想你、但不会找你

有时候，你很想念一个人，但你不会打电话给他。打电话给他，不知道说甚麼好，还是不打比较好。( Therefore, see him from a corner is enough )

想念一个人，不一定要听到他的声音。听到了他的声音，也许就是另一回事。( I think will tears) 想像中的一切，往往比现实稍微美好一点。想念中的那个人，也比现实稍微温暖一点。思念好像是很遥远的一回事， 有时却偏偏比现实亲近一点。

一个女人因为一个男人的离开而自寻短见，只有一个原因，就是除了他以外，她一无所有。拥有得愈多的人，愈舍不得死。一无所有的人，才会觉得活著没意思。 ( Hahas.. )

他不爱你，再过一万年之后也不爱你，你为甚麼还要为他痴迷， 为他流泪？( To let myself feel better )

有些事情是不可以勉强的。恋爱是双程路，单恋也该有一条底线，到了底线，就是退出的时候。这条路行不通，你该想想另一条路，而不是在路口徘徊。这里不留人，自有留人处。

如 果你开心和悲伤的时候，首先想到的，都是同一个人，那就最完美，如果开心的时候和悲伤的时候，首先想到的，不是同一个人，我劝你应该选择你想和她共度悲伤 时刻的那一个，人生本来是苦多於乐。你的开心，有太多人可以和你分享，不一定要是情人，如果日子过得快乐，自己一人也很好，悲伤，却不是很多人可以和你分 担。 你愿意把悲伤告诉他，他才是你最想亲近和珍惜的人 ( Always and forever only one and same person for me ;] )

离开之后，我想你不要忘记一件事：不要忘记想念我。想念我的时候，不要忘记我也在想念你。

就是喜欢这样，即使想你想到哭，我也不会去找你，我只是静静的想你。 ( I hope its true .. )

Sign Off : 12:42AM

Nights. Ciaos.

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Raazxc♥

.::AmIReallyHappy::.

Hi Bangs.

Meeting you was fate,

becoming your friend was a choice,

but falling in love with you was beyond my control.

Obviously I've cut my hair. Bye Long fringe, Hi bangs. The first time I cut bangs. Somehow it makes my face look rounder. My dad even told me that I look fatter. Gosh. But I've already cut it so let it be. Went to college and have class as normal but today presentation I just get nervous. Because I'm not confident with what I wanted to present about. Funny right. Maybe I just lost my own confidence. Hahas.

I've decided to change the Video production MTV song to Lara - 靠近一点点. I think I should shoot some happy MV instead of sad MV. Good Luck to me.

I need more encouragement. Imma so lazy nowdays. I dont feel like chiong for Good CGPA anymore lol. Eff me ._.'' Arghs.

He just made me think how good you are to me.

Ciaos..

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Raazxc

.::HiBangs::.

How I Wish.

缘分是本书, 翻的不经意会错过。读的太认真会流泪。

How I wish I could go to the beach with you with this shoe and left our cute little foot prints there. ;']

Sometimes sit down and stare at the clock quietly and wish the time can rewind and stop at that moment.

Today said want to go and have a haircut but till the end dint go. 10 plus in the morning, I wake up and realise my left eye swell. First thing in my mind is Fuck. I cant wear lens then how to have hair cut. I wash my eye. Make it cool down. Make it less swollen asap. In the end, evening plan to go have hair cut. Wear my lens in my red eye condition -.- pain. Then salon's uncle call my mum asked not to go today because alot of customer.

At night went to Bangsar Village. See and envy the rich people there. Dinner at Madam Kwan then fetch my brother who went to friend's birthday at Mont Kiara. My brother took his result today and its bad. In the end, I kena scold. Fuck this. Mum scold me that brother will go commerce class because of me saying commerce class easier to get A's. He went commerce cant even get A's. Do you expect him to went pure science class like me? His modern math cant score well as me and you expect him to take add math? When brother get bad result, everytime I kena. WHAT FOR? fuck this shit. My emotions is hard to control now. Dont make me angry or upset. I wont care anything to shout out loud to you or even say at the most, I commit suicide.

Pity my eyes. the tears is so bad. I think my eyes is too and over tired. therefore it swells up.

Seriously. I tried hard. It kills me. I just felt pain.

Ciaos .

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Raazxc♥

.::AnotherBadDay::.

Seriously, Not feeling well.

這世界除了你，再不會有人這樣讓我堅定到失控。

I hate this love song~ I hate this love song~ ♥bigbang.

My stomach is so pain pain pain pain pain. ;'( How I wish....

Facebook new feed been spam with 11.11 post. Its fake!

Recently feel so down. I dont know why. I think my EQ gets lowered.

Gonna get busy. Bunch of assignments. haha. Seriously, I no mood to do it. Dont know what result will I get for this semester. Previous semester result is the best ever.

Thanks and fullstop ;]

I Screw up my macbook audi. I need to reinstall it again ._. blahss... and tht Yu en - the yuennie ballie.. very wu liao de come bully me always ;(

He said :

Lols says:

*hah

*you bounce with the bad luck la !

*xD

Seriously, I am bad luck for years. Thank you very much.

Gotta off. Tomorrow school 11am.

Nights to people who still care about me.

Ciaos

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Raazxc

.::ILoseToMyself::.

Thanks for the Happiness Again.

不打擾，是我唯一可以送給你的禮物。

I can take care myself for my life. The first person that scolded me like that. Non of them scold me like that before. Irritates me.

不管放下了还是变陌生了， 眼泪偶尔还是会掉下，因为我很想你曾经给过我幸福的那个感觉。

I feel my life so messed up. What I have now is not what I wanted. I just pass my day just for the seek of staying alive. That day I really so happy. Seriously, so happy. It really let me feels better. I able to sleep well a bit though. Hahas.

2D animation. Im so lazy to do. Multimedia Interface, I think our idea is great enough for us.

Waiting is the only thing I can do.

I know I can wait because I really do.

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Raazxc♥

.::ThanksForMakingMeHappyAgain::.

Act it out.

我捧着一颗心，希望你会带回去。

Saturday attend my cousin's wedding dinner. I think the food is salty and all relatives just cant recognize my face.

Sunday. Selang came down to KL. So meet up at 1U with milo and zhile. I look damn cui. I will be look more cui in future. hahas.

I look fat and cui. Just Ignore it... blahs.

Tomorrow class cancel again. Since new semester start till now, we been owe for 5 classes already. How many weeks did new semester just started? Fuck This. I suddenly thought of last semester result. Its good because I think passed my days in happiness. Now..You guess ;]

I think I fall sick? I cant control my emotions. EQ gets lower. FML . I want to be happy. Seriously.

Over 12am again. Another day of insomnia. Hahahas.

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Raazxc

.::JustMyActingSkill::.

Im Afraid.

总有那么一个人，一直住在心底， 却消失在生活里。

我的那么一个人 已经消失了

Im the worst person in the world. Am I not right. I'm trying to make people around me happy but in the end..I only make people sad. I already lost of direction. So whatever I see, I follow.

Dont ask me where to go, because I lost the map of mine.

Dont ask me do I have feeling, because I give out my truth feeling to exchange lies.

Dont ask me what I need, because my needs had become memories.

Dont ask me why am I like this, because I am, I'm Afraid.

Afraid to accept any care,love, trust, friends and you.

I hope I can leave this world.

Peace with love.

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Raazxc♥

.::Im Afraid::.

Randomize.

不要随口说喜欢我，爱我。

我很傻，会当真。

All Random.

Assignment is coming... 2D animation. I hate it.

I say I can take care myself means I can.

Somehow I hope time pass faster.

I dont know should i join cosplay this year.

Just FML. ;D

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Raazxc♥

.::Random::.

Semester 4 Result.

不管真是还是虚假，我只想让你看到我过得很好。

Today my classmate get result from lecturer ;] I am very satisfied with my result. If Im not wrong..I got 2 subject top in class? Arghs..cant remember.

My Semester 4 result.

Critical &Creative Thinking - 80

BIT( Business Com. ) - 97

DIGITAL illustration - 86

Motion Graphic - 86

3D visualization - 72

Hahas..nothing to post.. Brain down at night.

I'll try to be happy as much as I can.

Ciaos.

Nights to people who cared and loved me.

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Raazxc♥

.::Semester4Result::.

Trust is just a bullshit.

Je veux être son favori et son plus durement bonjour au revoir.

전 쓸모 없어요

Everytime at home stone stone stone. Think this Think that. Plan this Plan that. Just sit down and stare at the screen like an idiot.

Please dont find me and say you care me because I am a friend of yours. Your Girlfriend will not happy with it because no girls in this world like their boyfriend sms another girl and tell the another girl that he care for her because she is his friend. Just leave me alone. I'm living with my life. I love to be alone. Dont ask me to trust you or anyone because no one will cherish my trust and care. I dont need your pity. I hate all of you.

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc

.::HoldingMyB.Heart::.

Just another day passed.

如果你喜欢的人不喜欢你,

那么就算全世界的人都喜欢你

还是会觉得很孤独吧！

Just Lost to the Time.

Tomorrow class cancel again. I feel this college is getting worst. My dad today fetch me and he asked me..why your college outside now so many those Mxxxx? LoL..what to answer? College only want money now. They want Quantity but not Quality. Fuck their Life.

I planned to use Ah Sang - Ye Zi song for my Video Production Assignment 1 - MTV . 1 Singer 2 Actors at least for the MTV. LoL...Planing in progress..Just now went down to Kepong Village mall there. Saw a bag i like but my mum comment so much so at last dint buy it. Then, found a pants i like but no size. Bad day huh..

Nothing to blog. Because my life is just so empty hahahas.

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc♥

.::FuckTheirLife::.