Trust is just a bullshit.

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Everytime at home stone stone stone. Think this Think that. Plan this Plan that. Just sit down and stare at the screen like an idiot.

Please dont find me and say you care me because I am a friend of yours. Your Girlfriend will not happy with it because no girls in this world like their boyfriend sms another girl and tell the another girl that he care for her because she is his friend. Just leave me alone. I'm living with my life. I love to be alone. Dont ask me to trust you or anyone because no one will cherish my trust and care. I dont need your pity. I hate all of you.

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc

.::HoldingMyB.Heart::.

Just another day passed.

如果你喜欢的人不喜欢你,

那么就算全世界的人都喜欢你

还是会觉得很孤独吧！

Just Lost to the Time.

Tomorrow class cancel again. I feel this college is getting worst. My dad today fetch me and he asked me..why your college outside now so many those Mxxxx? LoL..what to answer? College only want money now. They want Quantity but not Quality. Fuck their Life.

I planned to use Ah Sang - Ye Zi song for my Video Production Assignment 1 - MTV . 1 Singer 2 Actors at least for the MTV. LoL...Planing in progress..Just now went down to Kepong Village mall there. Saw a bag i like but my mum comment so much so at last dint buy it. Then, found a pants i like but no size. Bad day huh..

Nothing to blog. Because my life is just so empty hahahas.

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc♥

.::FuckTheirLife::.

Rosemary

人累了可以睡一觉，那心累了呢。。

Today, my desktop's graphic card finally changed. Due to my old version of computer, graphic card cant buy so expensive one ;( GAINWARD, PhysX by NVIDIA. My new graphic card.

My Audi, I changed my fam name from iHawt to Rosemary. Brand new life huh...I thought so. I've spend 2 hours to do Rosemary Siggy. This time I only use Words but not visual characters.

Is it nice? I dont know because I created it. The hidden meaning of Rosemary is Remembrance and Fidelity. I remember all the memories with carrying my smile on my face. Its because my loyalty been betrayed. Alot of things can only become a secret of myself. Holding it till the end of life. Rosemary is also the name of the ring in audi that i wanted since the day i joined audi and yet I still dint get it. And I recently only know the ring name Rosemary. Hahas. Everything seems to be perfect but it dont. Everything is fated.

陈思涵 - 雨不停

Another song that I Appreciate. Last time, I dont believe all the song lyric been created by real and truth feeling. But now, I do.

我不想去管去猜

能不能爱了就不後悔

我一直爱着过去 爱着你

而我的泪就好像雨从不会停

不想要再去压抑我的心

那些曾经 我选择相信

窗外下着雨 敲打着冰冷空气

好像说着你我 早已全都没有关系

Nice song ;D

Please dont say Im stupid to live with my past. Because it is the only way that makes me happy too. Im a failure in relationship. Yes its true but Im also the one helping peoples to solve their relationships problems. I wish people i help will success. Because now it is my biggest wish to see people's happiness. 别人的幸福，是我生存的理由。 I have all along become people's entertainer. I think I should seek people as my entertainment. It sounds bad. But Im forced to.

Even though Im afraid to touch and draw any portrait now but someday I will take my courage to finish a portrait of my feeling.

Sorry that Im just so irritating. Smile.

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc♥

.::TruthFeelingIsHardToFade::.

Hi College Again.

A guy will make you think he loves you, but he really doesn't.

A girl will make you think she doesn't love you, when she really does.

I just simply love wedding dress pictures. Sweet , charming and keep my heart warm.

Back to college again. Seriously all afternoon class. Im a Producer of a short film assignment? I could arrange excellent time schedule but only need collaboration. Today Thursday and tomorrow Friday class cancel. No lecturer. What a college administration arrangement. My class been told that we not allow to take result of previous semester due to 2D animation subject been defer to this semester until July. It sounds stupid. 1 and half year more to go. I need to end this well.

June holiday coming for others but not for me. Selang said he coming KL at 6 June while Ct said he coming on 21 June? Hope i can arrange my time to meet them. Time can be arranged. Meet Ct with Ltp then i might be their Light bulb. Somehow so what, I still pass my days like this.

Late night cant think of much things to blog. My brain slow and dead at night. If you know me well, you'll know it.

Ciaos♥

Goodnight to anyone that still got heart to care about me.

Appreciated.

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Raazxc

.::Hi-CollegeAgain::.

Because Im Just a Girl.

After last time wrote a story -bowl. Finally another light bulb strike up my mind.

I said I wanted to write an article and here it is.

2Am. I started to draft.

2.33AM. I type into this blog.

Why am I doing this? Its late night! Hahas. Insomnia.

My language skill is bad. Therefore I only can use simple words to form.

Entitle Because Im Just A Girl.

因为我也只是一个女生。

Because Im Just a Girl.

我累了我泪了，

我想要有个依靠，

但不是你说的一种渴望，

因为我也只是一个女生。

我想变得很坚强，

但是不管怎样都有限度，

因为我也只是一个女生。

我可以保护我自己，

但是我更想让你保护，

因为我也只是一个女生。

我常常很羡慕其他人，

但是我更想其他人羡慕我，

因为我也只是一个女生。

我在外头戴着坚强的面具让他人看，

但只有在你面前我把它摘掉让你看到真实的我，

因为我也只是一个女生。

不要以为了我着想当借口，

因为你无法真正肯定知道我在想什么，

因为我也只是一个女生。

虽然我也只是一个女生，

但是我还是有不同的地方，

特别的一面，

独特的行为，

奇怪的习惯，

因为我只想成为你的独一无二。

Yainnie 笔。

Okays, I admit it quite short. No idea already. Hahas.

Vision starting to blurs up.

Nights to people that cares me.

Ciaos

Raazxc

.::BecauseImJustAGirl::.

End of My Holidays.

Dont tell me that I am too good for you.

If I am really that good, You will not willing to let go.

Few days ago[ Monday ], went shopping with family. Mummy bought me a bag cost 160 bucks ;] Have lunch with mummy at DOME. It cost about 85 bucks just only for us. What an expensive lunch. Walk around and Look around, there not much of people because its Monday. My brother bought himself a cash card. What I realize about Asiasoft cash card in Malaysia. From Thick and hard plastic to Thin and Soft plastic and Now?! PAPER MADE cash card. Fuck their life. Cash card raise about 1 bucks. Therefore its 25 bucks per 10k. Now they just print it with paper card?! What the Fuck.

Holiday going to end. Seriously, this holiday damn suck. No class trip. No nice movie. Bad weather. Bad day too. Recently feel like write an article ;D Soon it will be post up somewhere. Hopefully it will be nice. Next week. New semester. I wish it could be better than last few semester ;]

Ciaos♥

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.::HolidayGoingToEnd::.

丁噹 ～ 不只是朋友

你身边的女人总是美丽
你追逐的爱情总是游戏
在你的眼里
我是你可以对饮言欢的朋友
你从不吝啬催促我分享你的快乐
你开心的时候总是挥霍
你失意的片刻总是沉默
在你的眼里
我是你可以依靠倾吐的朋友
你从不忘记提醒我分担你的寂寞
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有
你开心的时候总是挥霍
你失意的片刻总是沉默
在你的眼里
我是你可以依靠倾吐的朋友
你从不忘记提醒我分担你的寂寞
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有
想做你不变的恋人
想做你一世的牵挂
想做你不只是朋友
喔....喔....
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点温柔的娇纵
你从不知道我想做的不只是朋友
还想有那么一点点自私的占有

Raazxc♥

.::IKnow::.

Just an outing.

The best things in life are unseen，thats why we close our eyes when we kiss, cry and dream.

Saturday went out with my friends to Sunway. Actually we really had nothing to do. Went to Redbox sing again. Time havent up those worker already start to shoo us away == what the hell.

Walk around the mall, I looking for a bag but it seems like no bag that could attract my eyes. We went to Tbowi. A toilet concept restaurant ._.'' Actually those food really taste nice , especially the soup. When we enjoy our teabreak, we saw a guy holding a camera and shooting there. His friends even ask face the camera then smile and wave our hands. Lol..

Bought a new mac charger that cost 300 bucks. And bought a External hard disk 1 TB 360bucks. blahs.
Then night time dinner with family at ZEN.

My day is still so boring. New timetable really suck. Afternoon class. No Parking slot. Go home in traffic jam. Urhssss...

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Raazxc♥

.::ItsBoring::.

Another day during holiday.

Sometimes, slow down, stop and look behind at how far you've come.

Today wake quite early and nothing to do again. So this is what Im doing now. Blogging.

Recently always save a lot pictures and nice sentences from a lot of facebook pages. Can see that I am really bored.

Making a million friends is not a miracle.

The miracle is to make a friend who will stand by you when millions are against you.

Want find a friend that could understand you is hard but want find a friend that could entertain you is easy. Entertain Entertain and Entertain. My life is so simple and boring, dont have much entertainment. Argh..I want to go out.

Recently weather is so damn hot. I feel so warm. Just finished bath then sweating already. I saw a news from facebook, it says Malaysia is having dry season now and it will continue until September. Please tell me this is fake. Urghh...There are also haze around..smelly..

Yesterday surf facebook again, and I found this.

Who can sleep long means IQ high? Am I one of them *shy*

Im smart? Im not? Im Smart? Im not. hahas.

Is this mean old people is stupid? Because normally old people sleep very very less. LoL.

Think about my college life. I think my portfolio is very suck. I dont know am I able to went oversea with it. Sigh..

Recently I keep find taiwan drama and watch. Yesterday found 1 , it look nice. 不良笑花 Miss no good. Other than Episode 1, I cant find any website that provides me full episode! Rawrss!!! Alot of them blocked Malaysia. Malaysia Sucks man..... I want to get out from here one day.

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc♥

.::Boring::.

Mother's day '11

坚强不是心变硬，是泪在打转还能笑。

Celebrate mother's day for 2 days. 1st day with my family. Went to The Curve Senjyu japanese restaurant to celebrate. Mummy bought Senjyu coupon for 30 bucks and we have to eat until 300 bucks to get 150 bucks discount. Ate till very very full ;( At last because havent reach 300 bucks then i ordered another black sesame icecream and lychee icetea. The lychee ice tea somehow like perfume. The taste is very concentrated and it smell really good. After I drank it, my brother told me my mouth smell good like putting perfume into my mouth. Haha.

The Lychee Icetea

Next day, Monday, went to some chinese restaurant and celebrate with my grandma.

I wore so red yesterday. Hahas.

This holiday is really sucks. After watched THOR that day then now dont have any nice movie that I feel interest in. Everybody went to school, and Im doing nothing for whole day. Want find people to talk also dont have..Hais.. FML. Feel like going out but go out do what I also dont know. Window shopping? == boring. Drink Drink Eat Eat? Money fly. Gosh.. What about do some artwork? FML. My macbook dont have battery ;o No Charger!! Hais..

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc♥

.::Mother'sDay::.

A Day For Me To Breathe

永远那么理智，就永远都不会懂得爱情了。

Today Business Communication paper exam and Im late. Haha. Went in straight sit down and start writing. Anyway its easy, i know the answer for every questions. See, smart study works.

After that took taxi to The Curve with Jasmine. Bought THOR 3D movie tickets for 2.10pm. We went for our lunch at The Garden. Then walk around and decide to went in the cinema earlier. Get our 3D specs and get our ass inside the cinema.

Like flies ._. Its too dark though.

After Movies , we went for Redbox and Sing k. I forget to bring my student id but Exam docket still works! LoL. Like an Idiot. I thought sing more will be happier. It seems so tiring until both of us just sit down and watch MV. Lol. Then, went to DOME for dinner. I ordered the wrong things ;( I suppose to order chicken pie but i ordered seafood pie. And Yucks, it taste bad. Then walk walk around again then back home. What a day for me ;]

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc♥

.::A DayForMeToBreathe::.

愛的天國

有谁能够告诉我
时间的海多深
你和我的心明明曾经是相爱的
是否你还听得到
我呼喊你的声音
为何我有种靠不近你的心情
越来越不能够相信
生命之中没有你
好像天国没有美丽的嫁衣
为什么在我的眼睛
总有预感将要下雨
就算走在人群里也觉得好孤寂
为什么在你的眼睛
我看不到你的疼惜
难道爱已融化在时间里

有谁能够告诉我
爱的天国多远
你和我的梦是否可能会实现
越来越不能够相信
生命之中没有你
好像天国没有美丽的嫁衣
为什么在我的眼睛
总有预感将要下雨
就算走在人群里也觉得好孤寂
为什么在你的眼睛
我看不到你的疼惜
难道爱已融化在时间里
为什么相爱的原因
随着你转身的离去
爱的天国已遥不可及

Watched This In Tv and Heared This Song for the Show. Its really.. nice hahaha.

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Raazxc♥

.::愛的天國::.

Ugly bitch.

痛苦是用来独自承受的 , 快乐才是用来分享的。

Obala, thanks for let me realise he became a part of my heart since long time ago without my notice. You may hate me now. I would like to be alone because Im a loner ;D Sorry I've made you angry and upset. Because Im a ugly bitch. Haha. Seriously, I hate my photo now. The smile is just so damn ugly. I cant do anything about it.

Just finish1 bakkwa , it taste nice ;D

We went to visit my uncle and aunt who came back from Australia. I saw this outside the hotel lift. Its so funny. No durian! Arghs, everytime they come back, they surely will ask me go Australia and study..sigh!

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc♥

.::Thanks::.

Sunrise and Sunset.

一句我爱妳，把我哄得好开心，好痛心。

100days. Only 100days. And I shall go home.

There's no more The Day Wont Come.

There's no more I'll Never Lie You.

Just like There's no more Sunrise.

What is my mood before the day come.

I was damn fucking happy and excited.

You asked me to cling you as hard as I can.

I did. But you shake me off hard.

Everything changed so rush so sudden.

I cant take it but I must take it.

I tried so hard , finally my parents seems to accept.

They sometimes even mention about you.

How should i face them when they ask again.

I dont mind but why do you.

Im sorry because I fail.

I have become your entertainer.

Im sorry because I look desperate.

I just try not to fall off.

Im sorry because I become your burden.

But it happened without my conscious.

Im sorry because I never think of this great consequence.

And let you feel that sourness.

From the day,

You shouldn't be only one but it goes two.

It just become a part in our life.

You always said you're better than him.

What about now?

Im so serious about this,

and yet,

it ended up so fast.

It just fall on a nice number.

100 days only.

There's alot of things you never realise,

When you said yes, it must be a yes.

When you decided, it must be done.

I've put myself in your shoe.

Now, I've to go home.

As you wish,

Study and take care well of yourself.

Thanks for sewing up the wound.

And let it break again.

Im just a passby-er.

You said Hi and You said Bye.

Dont let this happen to anyone again.

It seriously hurt.

Good luck for everything.

Included myself.

Ciaos♥

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Raazxc♥

.:: I Love You ::.